cesar - ego

An it harm none...

Do what thou wilt.

John Williams!
harlem beat - sawamura
[info]ashrising

Damn!

I had already forgotten about it, even though I am the one who informed my friends of the concert.

There will be a John Williams concert tonight. They will play music from the movies: Star Wars, Harry Potter, Jaws, Superman and more.

I will not be able to go, because I have a rehearsal.

That, and I have no money.

Gerardo, my project leader, just reminded me of the concert, he said he is going...


Sigh...

César.

¡Crucifícalo!
psycho soldier - kensou
[info]ashrising

¡Clávalo, clávalo, clávalo, clávalo!

LOL, my neighbor at work, Montserrat, contacted me today through our instant messenger.

She heard me singing Trial before Pilate (Juicio ante Pilatos, Spain 2007 version).

She could only make out the "crucify him" part and wondered what I was singing, LOL.

She will root for me so I can keep my role as Caiaphas.


I have to start getting people into wanting to go. We want the theater to be full!

César.
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Thirty-nine lashes.
dragon quest - ryuujin
[info]ashrising

LOL.

I just remembered something (I am listening to Trial before Pilate).

During rehearsal it was established there would be 13 "regular" people during the trial before Pilate.

Rafa numbered them and told them each one would take part in three lashes. Number one would be lashes 1, 14 and 27.

Fonz was number 6. He turned to me asking me which lash was next for him. I told him it was 19. He counted something with his fingers and said it was 20. I did not even have time to roll my eyes. His number came and he realized he was indeed 19 (with a delay).

I signaled him the next one was 32. He was on time this once.

He should know by now he can trust me.

The day when I cannot add 6 + 13 has not yet arrived, thank God.


Well, that was kind of fun, and a highlight from last night. I do feel good about this (the look on his face was priceless).

César.
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Birth certificate.
dragon quest - ryuujin
[info]ashrising

Received.

I got the birth certificates my father sent me on January 22nd.

Now I can get my id.

I will tell Fonz tonight.


I want to see him.

BTW, I have not heard from my dad since last week's anti-gay email...

César.
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Rain.
harlem beat - sawamura
[info]ashrising

Non-stop.

It is still raining!

For more than two days, it has not stopped.

This brought me problems last night.

Gaby Ontiveros was giving me a ride from work, and she said she could take me all the way to where we have our JCS rehearsal.

I told her it was not needed. She was pretty tired, so I told her it was better she went straight home, I could take a cab.

Of course, this was before I realized I would be waiting for a cab for around 40 minutes!

Had I known that was to happen, I would have accepted her offer...

Still, I feel so much better now that it has been raining.

My throat had been aching the days before, and now it stopped hurting.


I love this weather, but I wish it were easier to find transportation.

César.
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Crying...
akira - kaneda
[info]ashrising

...

Not quite crying, but almost.

And this time it has nothing to do with Fonz.

Yesterday and today, during lunch, I read Stephen King's The Things They Left Behind.

I think it is the story that has moved me the most from Just After Sunset, and there have been some stories that really got to me.

It made me remember the Twin Towers, and again made me think what it could have been like to be there that day. And, again, made me realize that no matter how awful it is what I come up to, reality must have been way worse.


Bleh, I feel so weird right now... Cannot describe it...

César.
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Lista de tracks de mi CD con Fonz.
cesar - ego
[info]ashrising

Track list.


Fonz.
[01] El momento de conocerlo durante el ensayo. Antes de llegar a su casa y empezar a hacer tantas pendejadas.
Panda - Si supieras
Noviembre 26 2009
[02] El peor día. Lo peor que me pudo hacer, dejarme sólo en mi momento más bajo, lo hizo ese día. Es difícil que pueda dañarme más fuerte.
Los Súper Reyes - Ella se va
Enero 5 2010
[03] Inmediatamente después de lo peor, al ver que yo seguiría estando a su lado. Un momento difícil.
Ha*Ash - Odio amarte
Enero 5 2010
[04] No estoy pendejo. Me doy cuenta de muchas cosas. Sólo quería escucharlo directamente. Duele. Es peor no saberlo oficialmente.
Gee - La historia de nuestro amor
Hasta antes de Enero 10 2010
[05] No lo escuché directamente. Pero ya no era necesario. Nunca quiso nada conmigo. No me importó dejar que me viera llorar por él.
Sin Bandera - Que lloro
Enero 10 2010
[06] Momento de decidir. No importa que no me haya querido, mi decisión de apoyarlo no depende de eso. Aunque sea desde afuera.
Gloria Estefan - Sólo por tu amor
Enero 10 2010
[07] Ahora es su turno de pasarla mal. Está tocando fondo. Debe darse cuenta que rendirse no es una opción. Trataré de apoyarlo en lo que pueda.
Fey - Dime
Enero 11 2010
[08] No requiere mucha explicación. Es darme cuenta que no habrá nada (ni lo hubo). Es darme cuenta que parte de mí sigue aferrada.
Los Tucanes de Tijuana - Amor platónico
Ongoing
[09] El reconocer que ya antes he dejado ir a personas que lo han dado todo por mí. ¿Sería mejor olvidarme de todo esto? Pero no puedo.
Belanova - Tal vez
Ongoing
[10] Puede dar risa, pero pues así me siento. Y no quiero seguir viéndolo sufrir, tampoco.
Gael García Bernal - Quiero que me quieras
Ongoing
[11] Mi regalo para él. Esto va sin condiciones ni ataduras. Aquí estoy, descansa en mí, y si caminas por la cuerda floja voy tras de ti.
Kudai - Aquí estoy
Ongoing
[12] Bonus track. Algo acerca de mí. Aún no sé si lo he encontrado o no... Daré más de lo que recibiré... Funcionará... Algún día...
Michael Bublé - Haven't met you yet
Enero 5 2010



Éste es el CD que tengo en mi mente. Faltaría Todavía, de La Factoría, pero ésa ya se la canté en karaoke.

César.
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Failure...
justice gakuen - kyosuke
[info]ashrising

In theater...

I did not get the role I wanted (and had asked for) in David's next ReTaZoS play. Most likely because David does not think I am up to the task.

Rafa said (again) that he sees only one character in Quasimodo, when I am supposed to have three (or four) different characters.

And last night, in JCS, he said I may lose the role of Caiaphas. We will still try some new approach tonight, and I said I would keep trying, but it may be for naught.


Sigh...

César.

Five years!
dragon quest - ryuujin
[info]ashrising

Today.

Today marks five years since I joined Softtek. Yesterday was five years since I moved to Aguascalientes.


So much time...

César.

Guitar.
cesar - shirtless
[info]ashrising

Again.

It is time to start doing things I stopped doing along the road.

Last year I started reading novels (and short stories) again.

I wish I had time to start drawing (finished illustrations, not only sketches on my notebook) again.

But what has happened lately somehow made me want to start playing guitar again.

I have never been that good, and my fingers are too lady-like (no offense, you know what I mean) and hurt too easily when playing.

But I simply should not let so many years pass by without playing the guitar (and the recorder, for that matter, but my flatmates would kill me if I played it at midnight when I get home).

I selected Sin Bandera's Que lloro to start. It will be motivating because I have felt like that this month, and because the chords are rather easy ones (when played in D, which I think makes it easy for my voice, as well).


Wish me luck with this. I cannot be that bad only because my guitar has been gathering dust at home (four different ones now) for years.

César.
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Hate mail.
harlem beat - sawamura
[info]ashrising

Papá.

Anoche recibí este correo cadena de mi papá.


Este mensaje es para divulgarlo entre la gente de bien... y de mal.

Debemos hacer todo lo posible para que esta película sea un fracaso de taquilla y así sus promotores lo piensen antes de seguir en esa línea, sino por motivos de conciencia al menos por que les cueste el dinero

¿ALGUIÉN PODRÍA CREER QUE ESTOS MISMOS SE ATREVERÍAN HA HACER ALGO ASÍ SOBRE MAHOMA Y EL ISLAM?.
La película " Corpus Christi " se va a exhibir entre Junio y Agosto.
Esta película tan aberrante está programada para estrenarse en América este año, y muestra a Jesús y sus discípulos ¡como homosexuales!. Ya ha sido presentada en teatros, como obra teatral, por algún tiempo. Se titula "Corpus Christi " en latín, lo que en español significa "El Cuerpo de Cristo".
Se trata de una repugnante burla de Nuestro Señor. Pero nosotros podemos hacer una diferencia. Por eso te estoy enviando este e-mail a ti. Si reexpides este mensaje a tus contactos, quizás podamos evitar que esta película se exhiba en América, o aún en África . O quizás podamos reducir el número de personas que la puedan ver.
Defendamos aquello en que creemos y detengamos esta burla de Jesucristo, Nuestro Salvador. ¿Cómo nos vemos como Cristianos? A pesar del riesgo de molestarte, te estoy enviando este mensaje pues creo que lo apreciarás. Por favor, ayúdanos a evitar tales ofensas contra Nuestro Señor.

Te tomará menos de 2 minutos reexpedir este e-mail a tus parientes y amigos. Mándalo en CCO: ( Para no mandar direcciones).

Mira, vale la pena intentarlo. Aparentemente, algunas regiones de Europa ya han prohibido esta película. Todo lo que se necesita esmucha oración y una "avalancha" de e-mails.

Recuerda, Jesús dijo: "Si alguno se declara a mi favor delante de los hombres, yo también me declararé a su favor delante de mi Padre celestial y si alguno me niega delante de los hombres, yo también le negaré delante de mi Padre ". (Mateo 10, 32-33)


Le contesté a él, incluyendo a mi hermano.

He tratado de no hacer mención de mi homosexualidad con él para no hacerlo enojar (y que nole suba el azúcar), pero si me manda algo así (y hay que ver a quién más no se lo mandó), no puede esperar que me quede sin hacer nada. A mi hermano lo incluyo porque él está cerca de mis papás, y podrá hacer algo en caso de que mi papá se altere.

Además, puta madre, son mi familia. Diría que tienen un hijo gay y se joden, pero realmente no es algo malo. Lo malo es este tipo de correos estúpidos y el rechazo hacia nosotros.

Bueno, aquí va mi respuesta, enviada esta mañana...


Ojalá la gente fuera menos ciega y cerrada y se abriera a investigar más de lo que se habla antes de formar una opinión prejuiciosa, violenta y ofensiva hacia algo que no conoce, y, no indirectamente, hacia un grupo de seres humanos a quienes la sociedad ha querido marcar como "aberrantes".

La verdad, desconocía la existencia de esta obra de teatro, pero en este momento me puse a investigar sobre ella.

Al parecer relata una historia que se asemeja a la de Jesús (sin ser él parte de la historia).

El personaje principal (que viene siendo como un paralelo de Jesús, en cuanto al mensaje que quiere transmitir) se llama Joshua. Nació en una sociedad actual muy violenta y donde todos están más que dispuestos a destruir la vida de los demás.

Joshua es homosexual.

Joshua viaja por el desierto llevando un mensaje de amor y aceptación en medio de un mundo de crueldad e hipocresía.

Mensajes como esta carta cadena muestran perfectamente la necesidad de que una obra así exista. Se supone que debe enfrentar a la gente cerrada con la realidad que están creando a su alrededor y se den cuenta de que renuncian al amor al volverse criaturas llenas de odio hacia otros seres humanos.

Por supuesto, esto no se logra si la gente ni siquiera se preocupa por enterarse de lo que la obra realmente quiere decir, y se limita a tacharla de "burla hacia Jesús".

Me pregunto cuánto Jesús habría odiado a los homosexuales, pues claramente la Iglesia nos indica que, si bien Jesús es amor, éste es pequeño y limitado a las personas que viven dentro del marco de la heterosexualidad.

Qué lástima que la gente no quiera aprovechar tantas oportunidades que Dios nos brinda para crecer como personas en el amor, la aceptación y la unión.

Mientras el mundo quiera seguir dividido y con odio entre sus distintos grupos, así seguirá, no importando lo que Dios realmente haya querido.

Saludos a todos.


A ver ahora qué dice. Realmente espero que esto "malo" que pasó hoy sea para bien, y sea lo que haga que se dé ese primer pasito hacia una aceptación y un crecimiento.

Pero bueno, no me quitará el sueño porque no depende de mí.

César.
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¡No tienen perspicacia!
photos - baby
[info]ashrising

Hay más intereses jugándose aquí...

It seems my friends do not realize the gravity of the situation.

If I cannot get the voice needed for Caiaphas to a good level, I will lose the role. This has been the made clear from the start.

But I will not lose it.

I will raise my level now.


Starting with studying the timing so I know where the breathe.

César.
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Just After Sunset.
cesar - shirtless
[info]ashrising

Stationary Bike.

As you may remember, I am currently reading the short stories compilation Just After Sunset, by Stephen King.

I loved Willa, the opening story. I do not know much about storytelling, but I guess I can say I liked the topic, the pacing and the mood.

The Gingerbread Girl was interesting. I could feel what the protagonist was feeling, and I could be at her side as she tried to escape the dangers the story sent her way. I could even feel what she did as she took that final decision at the end of the story.

Harvey's Dream was different. I think if I felt more in synch with the lead character and shared her fears, I would have been more into the story and liked it more. Not being at that point of my life yet and not having children of my own kept me from enjoying this story as much.

Rest Stop was very interesting, because it showed how someone who knows fear can use his knowledge on a real life situation when needed, with a price.

I just started reading Stationary Bike today, during lunch. Even though I am not 38 and not as fat as the protagonist, I already feel connected to him. I have just read two chapters so far, but I think I will like this story quite a bit.


After finishing this book, I may read Percy Jackson's series (if I get the boxed set) or re-start reading Lisey's Story or Blaze, so I can continue with Duma Key and be ready for Under The Dome once the paperback comes out.

César.

JCS.
cesar - ego
[info]ashrising

Epic fail!

Everyone loved the rehearsal last night. Everyone was filled with energy (thanks to choreographer Alhelí). Everyone got more excited because we had the musicians playing along us. Everyone found things that made it easier for them to express what they have to.

Everyone, that is, but me.

The musicians play louder than the tracks we had been using.

My low notes are definitely not powerful enough to be heard above all of that sound.

And I got from worse to worst. At the end not even the easier parts of my songs could be heard.

I was sweating, I was trembling, I was not being heard.

Norberto (who has been so supporting all the time) gave me some tips. He is really trying to help me succeed.

Flor and Daniel also gave me some tips and offered their help.

Rafa told me to stop using my high pitch voice when singing and even during everyday talk.

Everyone told me I have to work on my breathing, and using my muscles to make my voice stronger.

I know I have produced a more powerful low voice before. It has been done while I am playing, goofing-off.

Besides the breathing training Norberto taught me, I will have to work on my mind.

I will have to forget this is the strict environment I have seen it as all this time, and think it is a place where I can play and do whatever I want. That way I will be confident enough to let my voice come out.

Hey, I am just now thinking I should perhaps read Yuriko Nishiyama's Dragon Voice again. That may help (seeing as Rin had special requirements to work on his voice, too).

I feel crushed, because of this and because Rafa did not (entirely) like my performance in Quasimodo. But I will not feel crushed for long. I will not let this defeat me. I will show everyone, myself included, what I can do when I put my mind to it.


BTW, I got my Savage Garden CD back. I have been wanting to listen to it for months! I am happy now! And crushed. Happy and crushed.

César.

JCS.
psycho soldier - kensou
[info]ashrising

Rehearsal.

Last night's rehearsal was great.

The choreographer, Alhelí, went to see us work. She will start working with us tonight. Ernesto, the musical director, will be there tonight, as well.

When my turn came to sing my part last night, my mike hand could not stop trembling.

Rafa thought it was the mike itself that made me nervous, but I think it was the fact Alhelí was watching us. When she left, I could sing without trembling.


Tonight will be cool, as well.

César.
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Two months!
cesar - ego
[info]ashrising

Fonz.

Today marks two months since the day I met Fonz for the first time.

It was on November 26th 2009 (Thanksgiving), during a pre-rehearsal for JCS.

Rafa, Alan, Fonz and I went to El Potro Loco to have dinner.

So many things have happened since then...

It is hard to believe it has only been two months.


And let us see what the next two months have in store.

César.
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Quasimodo.
justice gakuen - kyosuke
[info]ashrising

Opening!

It is done. We opened the season this week-end.

Everyone, come and see us.

Saturday. Some "minor" problems. Let us not talk about them that much, heheheheh.

Ave and I watched Avatar 3D that afternoon. Expensive, but worth every cent.

Not so the pizza we bought at Domino's. I ate half a medium-size pizza and half a large one. Ave left her large half at the entrance of the movie theater, and forgot to pick it up afterwards.

Spent the evening at Fonz's bar. There was this party at his house on Sunday, but since the plan changed and there would be no burgers, I decided not to go (and get some rest at home, where I started reading JLA/ Avengers again).

Well, Sunday was better for the play.

Or so we thought.

Rafa told me he did not see three different characters in my performance, but a single one (always the same, even though I double, triple, I mean, roles).

He announced Omar and I will stay on the play for one month only (he did not tell them the reason why we were leaving, but a few of them already knew it is because we will start working on ReTaZoS).

Lots of heat during the week-end. It is bad when our play starts at 13:30 and we have to warm up...


No rest for me anytime soon... But at least I got to eat at Sofi's today. I can barely move, I ate so much!

César.

JCS.
harlem beat - sawamura
[info]ashrising

This Jesus must die.

Tonight we will work on our song, at long last. I have mostly been a spectator so far, but now I will have to work, as well.

And we are three days away from our opening day for Quasimodo, el amo de la noche.


So much work to do... And I told Fonz I would help him assemble some chairs he needs for his bar...

César.

Hungry!
harlem beat - sawamura
[info]ashrising

...

Yesterday I ate lasagna at work. And then I ate pizza after work...

I should be saving money and I should not be eating so much, but somehow I could not resist, heheheheh.

BTW, today I will help Fonz with some chairs he needs for his bar. Those are for the new room he plans to open.


I am hungry now...

César.

Payday!
dragon quest - ryuujin
[info]ashrising

Yeah!

At long last, a breath of air!

It may not be much, but it is really needed.

Now, if only next payday could rush itself into being.


Worst of all, I do not even know when I will be able to buy Dragon Quest VI. As hard as it is to believe I am saying this, there are more important things to do with the money right now...

César.

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